Puppet Strings

I feel very trapped. Not sure what to do anymore. I'm tired of the mascara running down my face and the hurt. So I'm coming to you guys, for prayers. I feel like I don't have control over my life anymore. I'm not a teenager. I don't get to have fun. I wanted to go to probably the best concert that Morden will ever have, that I've been looking forward to for over a month, and now I can't. Because I'm a "good person". I'm babysitting that evening because I felt bad that the person I babysit for would have to find someone else. I guess that's my choice. But I feel like I can't do anything but babysit anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with this kid. But it's nice to be able to have fun with my friends once in a while, you know? I can't hang out with one of my best friends on Wednesday like we have every Wednesday for the past month because my parents don't want to feed one extra person and because apparently I don't do what I'm supposed to when she's over. Yeah right. I did so. I feel like I'm not supposed to be happy. And I'm sick of it. I'm tired of being inbetween adult and child. Being a teenager is so stupid. No freedom, but we're supposed to be responsible. I feel very very lost right now, and I don't know what to do anymore. If you have any bible verses that you think I should read, please let me know. Please pray, I need strength and guidance right now. I'm not going to give up. Love you guys.
Ariel